Real Estate - My First Broker Interview

I had a meeting with a potential new broker today and it went well except for the fact that I am going to have to pay about 1000.00 up front and put my boy in daycare and update my wardrobe.  I just don't know how I am going to come up with all of that money when there is no clearcut income. I will have to have a discussion with my husband tonight, but he is probably going to tell me to forget about it.  I have already sold everything in my house that is worth anything and quit babysitting.  So there is no money coming in on my side.  I feel sick.  I just don't know what to do.  It seems like everytime I get a wonderful feeling, like when I passed the state board after failing twice or like today after talking with a broker, that money issues always come along and cut my legs out from under me.  It is really hard to stay positive and upbeat when there are always downers like lack of money waiting to bring you down.  I guess I could have prevented all of this by trying to save a little money back while I was working, but I truly did not realize that I was going to be forced to be a member of the MLS and the NEFAR and that that was going to cost me 855.00!  So now I am in the position of either having to throw away everything that I have already invested and quiting or putting my family into financial turmoil.  What would you choose?